As each day goes by, I am getting more and more anxious, excited, worried, dazed and overwhelmed. Although five months seems relatively short, it isn't. Not to me. Five months ago, it was Valentines Day. It was summer. The university semester hasn't started. And I thought, "Wow, six months until I leave!"
Where did all that time go? Now I'm preparing To Buy lists (which is insanely long! I'm going to be poor for the rest of my life), To Do lists (which is also insanely long! I can feel the Procrastination Queen rising inside of me) and organising important information about my visa, passport, bank accounts etc for my parents incase something goes wrong when I'm away.
My biggest worry right now, is the homesickness that I'm going to experience. Apparently it comes in waves, hitting you hard so suddenly then leaving at the same speed. A week and a half later as you're sitting in bed preparing for the next day, it hits you again leaving you crying and sobbing in fetal position. (Okay, that last sentence I made up but I imagine it to be true.) Although I will probably have plenty of internet access and I'm able to call home quite often (apparently there is an amazing deal at Crazy John's which is 3cents/minute for international calls. Get it and call me (: ), not being able to hug people hello and goodbye, or kiss mum good night, or hold hands with someone special or just feeling the physical warmth of a friend standing next to you is something quite daunting and saddening. All I'll have is a virtual smile, a face on a screen and a voice in my ear.
A big update that I should probably tell you guys, is that I have no idea where I am being placed. Good Start Montessori School and a few other schools pulled out leaving volunteers, me included, to be reassigned in a last minute hurry. Through Facebook, I witnessed volunteers being placed together with a friendly, "Hello! Looks like we've been placed together!", as I await eagerly searching my e-mails every hour for a message telling me where and who. Yes, every hour. But my e-mail has not come yet. My friend was assigned her placement two weeks before her departure. Looking on the bright side, guess I'll find out my placement this week then! How exciting.
Although this post seems to have quite a dull and negative tone on it, I assure you, I am genuinely very excited about my trip. It's going to have major lows but it's going to have even more major highs.
When all is said and done, who is responsible for the experience you will have?
-YPWB
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